I am a little angry, when in fact, I should be furious.........
There is so much about life I can’t really understand. And really, I am 34, right! Old enough to figure out a few things for myself. I don’t understand people, their angst, their rudeness. I cannot quite understand their generosity, their kindness, their love, their passion either. The Yin and Yang of existence is so far out of my reach. I have to figure out life as each day passes by. There should be a user manual or something. I mean, where is all that Algebra I learned in school? Or the complicated Chemistry equations that had me up all night worrying about my mid-term scores? How exactly did they help? They did not teach me how to deal with a spinach-on-your-teeth fiasco on your first date. Or how to stop anxiety attacks when rainwater assaults your lovingly decorated living room. Education was, in my current opinion, quite useless. So I have to live, every day, and figure out life’s many challenges. Like how to deal with the grief of missing my past life, my family and a lost love, while also celebrating my current life, loves, friendships and opportunities. I have to learn to move on, and still be able to look back with fondness, without all the bitterness that has often haunted my thoughts this past year.
There is so much about life I can’t really understand. And really, I am 34, right! Old enough to figure out a few things for myself. I don’t understand people, their angst, their rudeness. I cannot quite understand their generosity, their kindness, their love, their passion either. The Yin and Yang of existence is so far out of my reach. I have to figure out life as each day passes by. There should be a user manual or something. I mean, where is all that Algebra I learned in school? Or the complicated Chemistry equations that had me up all night worrying about my mid-term scores? How exactly did they help? They did not teach me how to deal with a spinach-on-your-teeth fiasco on your first date. Or how to stop anxiety attacks when rainwater assaults your lovingly decorated living room. Education was, in my current opinion, quite useless. So I have to live, every day, and figure out life’s many challenges. Like how to deal with the grief of missing my past life, my family and a lost love, while also celebrating my current life, loves, friendships and opportunities. I have to learn to move on, and still be able to look back with fondness, without all the bitterness that has often haunted my thoughts this past year.
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